[DD] Discovering the MINI FOREST !!

                                                                                                                                        2nd August, 2012
                                                                                                                                        Thursday
Dear Diary,
Today me & my friend decided to go to the mart which takes about 5 minutes in a bus because it's summer vacation and the department stores inside my university are closed, thus I was compelled to go outside under this harsh sun in order to buy groceries (by groceries I mean chips, chocolate & all the other kinds of junk food >.^)
Summer in Xuzhou is SOooo hot, it makes we wanna stay inside my room & do nothing but watch dramas all day long. Thank God the weather was on our side today, it wasn't very sunny and we could feel the wind; unlike other days.


             It all started with us getting ready in my room :) This is me & my friend Sandhya posing before heading out.

Showing off my Picasa editing skills :D *I know I suck at it*

              

                            As we got off the bus, on the right side of the road we could see a grassy land and some trees. So, we decided to look around before we went to the mart(which was on the left side of the road). As we slowly walked all that we could see were more trees & more trees & more trees. Thus, the "mini-forest" was discovered. It might be a small park made by the chinese people but I prefer to call it the mini-forest. We're planning to go there again with more friends and explore the whole area. ^^

I wonder how do I come up with all of these "akward" poses -.-'

Will you believe me if I tell you, I am the girl lost in the forest ?? [>.^]

Explaning about this pic; "Eerr.......Trees kind of make me happy ?" O.o

I've always loved nature. I feel so good when I'm walking around places like this. Some place away from all the big buildings, vehicles, people or lets just say "the outer world". Peaceful & beautiful. Finding this place just made my day a happy one :) 
Looking forward to go there again, may be on a picnic !!


Till next time takecare
xoxo 

I'm nineTEEN & I've planned out my whole life O.o

Hey there,
I know I said I'd be blogging on regular basis but I've been so busy doing NOTHING [>.<]


In the middle of watching a Bollywood movie I suddenly wanted to update a FB status but somehow I ended up here :) Somethings been bugging me for so long and if I don't get it out now, I might go crazy :O 
Don't worry, it's not that serious but I hope you sit & listen ^^


 Have you ever been clueless about your life ? Have no idea what you're going to do in the future, totally blank about which subject you want to choose or what you want to be when you grow up ? Well, for me that never happened. I've always wanted to be a doctor, in-between I did wanted to be a singer, RJ, architect, pilot (but that's a different story). Before I finished my grade 10 finals I already knew I wanted to study Science in my +2, before I finished my +2 finals I was already looking around for MBBS preparation classes and that's how I ended up here (studying medicine in China)


So, I know I am going to be a doctor in next 5 years, I have this list of things I am going to do after I graduate. It's like I've planned out my whole life and I am serious about it (unlike the time I wanted to be a TV star) It's all good but I am 19 & is it normal for be to be thinking so much about LIFE ? I am not a boring person but sometimes I wonder if I'm missing out on all the fun of being a teenager because I'm too busy planning what I'm going to do in my 30s or 40s. They say "Life happens when you're planning it" I'm just scared I might not be able to figure out who I am now because of who I will be tomorrow.


Sometimes I feel like giving up, I get tired of being so uptight, thinking too much never helps, I've planned out everything and it's kinda driving me crazy. I look around, see people of my age doing what ever they feel like, not serious about their future and running around like idiots(no offence), I often think they should start being serious about life before it's too late "but" at times should I be like those idiots BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE ?


I need to loosen up, LIVE, breathe, jump, roll *sigh* life is too short and every day I feel like "A DAY" is slipping away :/

That's me thinking deep about my life. Okay !! Okay, I'm just posing *teehee*

That's all for today !!
Next day I might come with some more complains about life
...because even HAPPYgirl gets upset at times
Till next time xoxo

Summer Vacation 2012

                     Hello, long time no see eh ? I've been so busy STUDYing for my final exams. I'm glad its over, I hated watching dramas with that "I should be studying" feeling in my heart, hehe. I hope you are having a wonderful summer or winter, in case it's winter in your country O.o  And on a random note, I hate summer.

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          Yippee.....my vacation just started & I have no idea what I am going to do for the next 2 months. The first thing that came to my mind was "Do Something Productive". Last semester I wasted my spring break sleeping all day and using net all night and of course eating in between *sigh* I don't want that to happen again.


Did you guys notice something ? I normally don't blog about my daily life and stuffs but I've decided to blog more often so stay tuned if you want to see me blab about boring things happening in my life :)


See you soon
xoxo

STOP Animal Testing !!

                          Have you ever heard of animal testing ? I bet you have. I had heard about it, I knew how cosmetic companies do their tests on animals before selling out their products in the market but I never knew how bad it was. I mean, I was a ignorant fool I guess, I always thought "what harm can simple cosmetics cause to the animals". I never gave it a second thought but today a picture I saw on internet made me dig deeper, that's when I realized, how these animals are burnt, blinded, tortured with chemicals and stuffs, just so we can have a nice lip color or smooth skin. INHUMAN !! 


I am trying to figure out why these kinds of un-necessary experiments are done on animals when there are other methods to test those cosmetics.
JUST BECAUSE we are human and more powerful
JUST BECAUSE they cannot defend themselves
JUST BECAUSE they cannot tell you how much they are hurting
JUST BECAUSE some people think their(animals) life is less precious
JUST BECAUSE I am here writing about it and have NO IDEA about how to stop this :(


I'll let the pictures do rest of the talking..............

Happy Girl is SAD today :'(

Do you want to change anything from your past ?

                           It's 2:32 am & I had this sudden urge to wake up and make a new blog post. So here I am, moving my fingers on my keyboard while I should have been travelling in my dream land. 

All of us use this key, every once in a while :)

                         Sometimes I get on my TIME MACHINE and travel back in time. Just kidding !! It's the pictures in my drawer, old videos, songs or my random thoughts that let's me relive the moments. Human mind is amazing, we can close our eyes and imagine everything like it was yesterday. So many things unsaid, so much drama created, so many times getting hurt & so many times hurting other people. I can remember everything, every detail, every words said and every feeling felt. Walking down the memory lane is not easy, sometimes it's confusing. Looking back at times we cried can make us laugh and looking back at times we laughed can actually bring tears to our eyes. Good or bad, I find my memories amusing, it let's me see how I have changed in so many ways yet I'm still the same(if you know what I mean). Bad memories haunts me at times and I wish I could change so many things about my past but then I re-think and realise how every little part of my past is what made me who I am today and I would never want to change that. At the end it's all about today, who I am and where I stand and if tomorrow anyone walks up to me with an actual time machine and ask me that one question "Do you want to change anything from your past ?" I'd give a smile and say "If I could actually relive my life, every single thing I did, every mistakes I made, every tear I shed...I wouldn't change a thing !!"








*Yawn* I should probably get to bed now
See  you guys next time
Till then, embrace your memories and keep on smiling ^^
xoxo

I wish I could take your pain away

                         Two posts in one day may be a little too much but it's already 12:03 am & technically it's another day :) So there I was looking at my Facebook news feed & something got my attention.(I prefer to not talk about what happened because I think I have no right)
                        It got me thinking about how sometimes when someone you know is going through a very hard time & you know they are hurting bad, you wanna console them but you're afraid you might not be able come up with the right words or worse end up saying something stupid which might hurt them more. You can just imagine what they are going through but you cannot know what it's like to be in that exact situation, you cannot imagine the degree of pain their heart must be holding in. Wish I could do something, wish I had words to tell you but all that I am capable to say is a faint "take care" :/

                        OK, so that was me talking about "someone we know" but what if  "that someone" suffering is someone close to us ? Someone we love so much, someone we care about, someone so dear that seeing them is pain makes your heart feel like it's been crushed. Sometimes I hate the fact that I am just a human with no magical powers. When bad things happen to people I love, when I see them in pain, all that I can do is sit there and watch. Being there is NOT good enough. I feel a heavy weight on my chest. The thought that I am incapable to help them, makes it hard to breathe at times. Once again, I find no words to tell them......inside I scream "I wish I could take your pain away" and outside I smile and try not to show, it's killing me inside. I get so angry at times but then have this faith that if God gives you pain, he makes you strong enough to bear it. I pray, I pray everyday & hope slowly he is going to fix everything. Faith is all that keeps me going.


Have faith
& smile for the ones you love <3
xoxo

Let it go !!

                                   You know how you see someone with that sad look on their face & in a minute they start complaining about how they have a crappy life. I’ve seen people do this & I always wonder “WHY?”. If you let a bad thing turn your day into a bad day & your bad day make you feel like you have a bad life, then you’re nothing but stupid.  But at times I end up being the stupid one. Bad feelings are powerful, they can make the happiest day seem like a nightmare. We humans have this habit of looking at the bad side of the situation, instead of working things out we tend to sit down and mourn about what went wrong, why it went wrong, how it went wrong, bla bla bla. Is it even worth it ?  Why can’t we simply let it go as what’s done is done, it cannot be changed & why ruin the rest of the day thinking about it ? Every time I’m in a situation like this, I tell myself how I am stronger than this “bad feeling”, how I won’t let it drag me down, I put on a smile and enjoy the rest of my day. It’s not a easy job but ones you get used to it, you’ll love the feeling.

                                        And trying to look at the positive side, we actually need bad things to happen so that we can truly cherish the goodness of good things(if you know what I mean). Each day is a gift, we have an uncertain future so remember that every minute you stay sad, you lose 60 seconds of happiness J




Feel blessed
Stay happy
& keep reading my blog posts [>.^]
xoxo