A letter to God

Dear God, 

I know we talk everyday but today I thought about writing a letter for a change J

You know what today is, right ?? It’s 12:42 am and it’s my Birthday !!! I was 19 years old 42 minutes ago and now I’m 20 *phew*, sometimes I wish I could stop time and just stay the way I am. With time and everything around me I feel like I’m changing, learning more about life and maybe slowly turning into the person I am meant to be.

Today, I’d like to thank you for everything. I know I am blessed……with a loving family & friends, this heaven like world and every little thing that makes a difference. Sometimes I take it for granted but deep down you know I thank you everyday for being so nice, for giving me happiness, making me strong  and protecting me. I hope one day I’ll be able to give back to life, I’ll be able to do good things and be someone you can be proud of. Sometimes when you don't give me what I ask for I get kinda sad but I can never get mad at you as I know you've already given me more than enough. 

At times I find myself questioning your existence as I see terrible things happening in the world, maybe you have a good reason for all of that, maybe  there would be no good if there was no bad but still there are a lot of things I don't understand(you know what I'm talking about) \

At last I'd just like to say..........."You know what I want for this Birthday ; )"

If “the future me” ever looks back and reads this letter, I would want her to remember when she was 19 she was happy and blessed, she was thankful for things she had and made a promise that one day she will do good things and spread happiness in her own ways.

Life is never perfect, you cannot have everything you want but you can make it ‘imperfectly perfect’ by always looking at the brighter side of the picture  ^^

Every day is a blessing !!

Happy Birthday Lojima :)

When you can't see the other side of the story

Just staring at the floor with a lot of things running through my mind.
A part of me asking me to stop over thinking
...........& a part of me not letting me stop >.<

How much you love people around you ? How much you care & how much are you willing to do for them ?
Sometimes I can't help but wonder what I mean to them.

Doesn't it hurt a lot when somebody means so much to you and at the end you find out you were not a "important" part of their lives ? *been there

At times I just want people to prove to me that all the care & love I have for them, they actually deserve it. It might be me being selfish but I have some serious trust issues. My crazy, evil mind sometimes questions how faithful they are or maybe I am the only one trying and trying harder to maintain the relationship. I don't give up on people but if they don't care about me as I care about them what's the use of holding on ?

May be you care but fail to show. May be you have a lot to say but cannot come up with the right words. Maybe you're trying as hard as I am but how am I supposed to know your side of the story when it feels like I'm standing all alone ?

Trust me, I want to believe you care...I want to believe you'll be there for me but I get scared at times & every once in a while I'd like you to show me 'where I stand' !!!

xoxo
Happy Girl 

Goodbye 2012 !!

Hello Everyone. I know I've been lost but my semester is coming to an end and I'm having my exams so my stress level is rising like anything. It's 31st December, 2012...that means it's new year tomorrow..Yeppiiee.....BUT I'll probably be stuck in my dorm studying *hmph*

So, I just thought about writing a quick post about the year "2012"

A lot has happened this year.

2012 might just be one of the most memorable year of my life, it has all been about adjusting, adapting & still trying to hold on to who I really am.

I almost went crazy the first few months…..away from family…..away from friends…….away from my dog…..in midst of people I didn't know well. Looking around and thinking about how much my life has changed. All the feeling I kept inside me made me so angry at times, sometimes I wanted to cry, sometimes I would just wish to be alone but as time passed by I started to see a light. Everything was clearing up, I could see I was changing into a person that may be I was born to be.

All the anger faded away. I started to see the brighter side of the picture. I had always been this pessimist who’d see a full glass empty and complain about it but now nothing really worries me. I believe whatever happens, happens for good.  I've realized how if you are satisfied in the inside, happiness surrounds you in the outside.  I can genuinely smile now, I’m a happy person. If I ever grow up and look back at this post I want my future self to remember and know, happiness is not about having everything in the world, it’s about finding that inner peace, feeling lucky & blessed.

This year is coming to an end. It has been like a roller coaster ride with loads of ups and downs. Falling, rising & smiling. But there is one thing that worries me. World did not end on 21^st December 2012 but I feel like the humanity did. Hearing these news about crimes that has been happening all over the world. Innocent people being killed for no reason is just so heartbreaking. How can a human being be so brutal ? I want to pray for every single soul & wish that people would hold on to their humanity and try to make this world a better place to live in. No matter who you are, where you are or what you do.....the most important thing is to be a good person & keep on smiling :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 !!! ^^

Spread peace

Spread Love

Stay Happy

xoxo

Happy Girl !!

I'm Back !!!

FINALLY !!!..........Hello :)
I've been away for quite some time as I wasn't being able to access to my blog & facebook through China net. Imagine life without the social networking sites ?? It was awful, no status updates, no picture updates, it was like I was living in a isolated place, I almost died out of boredom. Okay ! okay ! I need to stop being so dramatic, It wasn't that bad. Infact I almost learned to live without my lovely blog & facebook BUT I'M BACK :)

Here are some picture updates from my instagram !!. Hope you like them........

My school bag :)

Click ** Click 

Shopping !!!

Cotton candy clouds *dreamy*

Ice-cream in winter ^^

Sushi ~~ harahittta !!

Soon the leaves will fall down and the cold wind will blow them away. *winterlove

Dorm life ;)

The day when the wind almost blew me away !!

Happy Deepawali 2069 :)

That's all for now
Hope you're having a wonderful time

Enjoy life & keep on smiling

xoxo 

Happy Girl

http://instagram.com/imperfectlyperfectlife

............how I grew smarter but my heart is still on the dumb side

Looking outside the window you try to remind yourself how things keep on changing

.............& adapting is the only way to survive.
Nobody can be trusted.
Expectations lead to disappointments.

How 'that' someone who said would love you forever leaves & never looks back.

How your 'best friend' is no longer in your friend zone OR may be she never was.

How people you trusted the most were the ones to stab on your back.

How people lie to your face & act like nothings wrong.

Sometimes I feel like everything I ever knew, was a LIE.

You try to surround yourself with a protective layer of negativity. 

"It's a lie" "It's a lie" "It's a lie", that's what your brain keeps on reminding you when someone tells you things that can make you happy. Good things like how they miss you, like you, care about you, will never betray you or hurt you. YES, you want to believe them but you cannot. Your brain wont let you and most of the times, it's making the right decision. Because those people don't mean it, they never did. Later when you find out about the truth your brain goes "See ? Told ya !!" but deep down your heart still feels the pain as no matter how many times your brain asked you not to believe them, your stupid heart ALWAYS DID !!!

xoxo
Happy girl

[DD] Discovering the MINI FOREST !!

                                                                                                                                        2nd August, 2012
                                                                                                                                        Thursday
Dear Diary,
Today me & my friend decided to go to the mart which takes about 5 minutes in a bus because it's summer vacation and the department stores inside my university are closed, thus I was compelled to go outside under this harsh sun in order to buy groceries (by groceries I mean chips, chocolate & all the other kinds of junk food >.^)
Summer in Xuzhou is SOooo hot, it makes we wanna stay inside my room & do nothing but watch dramas all day long. Thank God the weather was on our side today, it wasn't very sunny and we could feel the wind; unlike other days.


             It all started with us getting ready in my room :) This is me & my friend Sandhya posing before heading out.

Showing off my Picasa editing skills :D *I know I suck at it*

              

                            As we got off the bus, on the right side of the road we could see a grassy land and some trees. So, we decided to look around before we went to the mart(which was on the left side of the road). As we slowly walked all that we could see were more trees & more trees & more trees. Thus, the "mini-forest" was discovered. It might be a small park made by the chinese people but I prefer to call it the mini-forest. We're planning to go there again with more friends and explore the whole area. ^^

I wonder how do I come up with all of these "akward" poses -.-'

Will you believe me if I tell you, I am the girl lost in the forest ?? [>.^]

Explaning about this pic; "Eerr.......Trees kind of make me happy ?" O.o

I've always loved nature. I feel so good when I'm walking around places like this. Some place away from all the big buildings, vehicles, people or lets just say "the outer world". Peaceful & beautiful. Finding this place just made my day a happy one :) 
Looking forward to go there again, may be on a picnic !!


Till next time takecare
xoxo 

I'm nineTEEN & I've planned out my whole life O.o

Hey there,
I know I said I'd be blogging on regular basis but I've been so busy doing NOTHING [>.<]


In the middle of watching a Bollywood movie I suddenly wanted to update a FB status but somehow I ended up here :) Somethings been bugging me for so long and if I don't get it out now, I might go crazy :O 
Don't worry, it's not that serious but I hope you sit & listen ^^


 Have you ever been clueless about your life ? Have no idea what you're going to do in the future, totally blank about which subject you want to choose or what you want to be when you grow up ? Well, for me that never happened. I've always wanted to be a doctor, in-between I did wanted to be a singer, RJ, architect, pilot (but that's a different story). Before I finished my grade 10 finals I already knew I wanted to study Science in my +2, before I finished my +2 finals I was already looking around for MBBS preparation classes and that's how I ended up here (studying medicine in China)


So, I know I am going to be a doctor in next 5 years, I have this list of things I am going to do after I graduate. It's like I've planned out my whole life and I am serious about it (unlike the time I wanted to be a TV star) It's all good but I am 19 & is it normal for be to be thinking so much about LIFE ? I am not a boring person but sometimes I wonder if I'm missing out on all the fun of being a teenager because I'm too busy planning what I'm going to do in my 30s or 40s. They say "Life happens when you're planning it" I'm just scared I might not be able to figure out who I am now because of who I will be tomorrow.


Sometimes I feel like giving up, I get tired of being so uptight, thinking too much never helps, I've planned out everything and it's kinda driving me crazy. I look around, see people of my age doing what ever they feel like, not serious about their future and running around like idiots(no offence), I often think they should start being serious about life before it's too late "but" at times should I be like those idiots BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE ?


I need to loosen up, LIVE, breathe, jump, roll *sigh* life is too short and every day I feel like "A DAY" is slipping away :/

That's me thinking deep about my life. Okay !! Okay, I'm just posing *teehee*

That's all for today !!
Next day I might come with some more complains about life
...because even HAPPYgirl gets upset at times
Till next time xoxo